5:00am in Ridgewood, NJ

A cold apartment in downtown Ridgewood, NJ

Sometimes emotions get the best of us. Then we have these wonderful opportunities to indulge in the love of our true friends. We can scream, cry, yell, or just sit in silence with those who just get it, no matter what the circumstances. Many have disagreed but I remain with the belief that many times it is our closest friends, those we have known for many years, who know us better that ourselves. This beauty comes from that collaborate consciousness that is humanity. Without the others, no individual would exist. If it was just me, that there would be nothing but that, nothing but that fear of being alone for eternity. Now I have realized that it is those who are closest who can bring us the possibility of release from the trap of solitude. This is beauty incarnate. This is real love.

Then, when we realize the beauty that a friend can provide our cell phone dies and the friend in the bedroom goes to sleep. This is when the soul comes through to keep the desperate company.

Am I desperate? Well not at the moment. I have my words to keep my company. Still, all is fleeting and this moment will fade like the rest. As the great Jack K. says, "home I'll never be."

Never get too comfortable to any moment. I begin this at five in the morning taking a few breaths between each word. Now I am here and the difference alone is fantastic. Just a momentary transition but this, like every acknowledged changing moment, leave us infinite possibilities. The sun will soon rise and the surrounding world will start again. I can see it now through the window on my left. Although the sky is black, the sun is getting ready to rise, and it will. It always does. On a distant mountain named Cadillac in Maine, the sun has already risen. This mountain standing gently over the nearby Atlantic Ocean, sees the first sun rise in this country. I've been there. I've seen it rise. I have held the grace and welcomed this country into a new day. Someone right now, or perhaps an hour ago did the same for me. If this is read as it is written than no worry would need to persist in the mind of anyone past right now. The day is new and the world has spun completely around. This is the infinite possibility of each moment and I refuse to let it go. Please join me. Grasp what your soul says is right, even if the consequences are insecurity or the horrible reality of the unknown. This is a necessary step. Security is a facade no matter what we think. If we believe that life is exact and that moments eventually flow to a steady pace, we may be living in the least prepared way possible. Be ready to smile at any time and the world is yours.